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Name: Sarah
Birthday: 3/15/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: Theater, dancing, singing, acting, traveling, being with my friends, movies, karaoke (I usually watch and then add silly voices in the background), animals, having adventures, making memories that I'll never forget, sitting on the dock on the lake, turning down the volume of really bad movies and creating crazy and silly sound effects, smiling, and laughing.
Expertise: making people smile, and maybe even laugh.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Entertainment
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Member Since:
1/27/2005
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| I've always wondered about getting a massage...I need one right now. My mother-in-law does reiki, which I have heard works wonders. But to have one done around here costs a ton - the lowest I've seen is $60 for one hour, which is the best deal I've seen so far. But $200 for one hour is stupid.
I have two jobs, and I am considering 3 at the moment. Right now, a degree in anything means nothing.
I am trying to embrace the idea of myself transforming into a "new me". I have never really truly considered working out in order to relieve stress, but it is really looking good at the moment. At times, I find myself bored out of my mind when I'm not at work. I find that agitating and mind-numbing. I'm trying to find something to take the place of this. I need to go back over to the community theater in town to see if they need any more volunteers. I need to find something for me to do that makes me feel like I have some sort of purpose. What was I put on this earth to do? I thought acting, performing and making people feel good. Now, I am afraid that I don't desire it as much as I have in the past. That was the only thing I ever lived for. So what now? I will soon turn 25. I want to be able to have something in my life that I am good at that makes me feel like I've contributed. Right now, I am restless. I find myself feeling a little lazy, which is completely not who I am at all. I used to juggle school, plays, and travel all at the same time. I feel sluggish at times now. The weather has a lot to do with these feelings too. I've been seriously contemplating moving to another state where it's a little warmer than Maine. I want to travel and to try new things, but they seem out of reach at the moment, financially. Most of all, I am looking for a way to become a better me.
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| I'm getting used to the glasses now. But I've only had them for a total of five days, so I think I'm still not fully accustomed to them. My night driving has become glorious, since I don't have to squint anymore, and I had AR (Anti-reflective) coating put on my lenses, so it makes that night-driving even better. When I take them off to shower or to go to bed, everything around me becomes fuzzy, which seems completely odd to me, but I am realizing that I did need them. It'll be interesting when I have my full prescription put in them (this rx is just a jumping-off point, to get me used to it. In several weeks, I'll be able to put the full rx in).
I went to work last night, but I wasn't on the clock. It was volunteer work for the company. Our company has a program that helps people receive glasses who can't afford them. We take any donated glasses with us on mission trips. Last night, we all came together to organize them. Some of us read the rx's through lensometers, and then the rest of us wrote the numbers onto plastic bags. We then put the glasses in the bags, and had them gathered up. We grouped up over 200 pairs! Afterward, we decided to go out and play some billiards in town. About an hour later, we were playing darts and pool. I've never played darts before, but I got a bullseye!! It was a lot of fun.
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| I have to wear glasses now!! Apparently, my eyesight sucked, lol.
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| I get mad at myself sometimes. I can get so terrified, and it feels like there is nothing I can do to get out of it. It always comes at the wrong time, when I need to be somewhere. It makes me angry when I can't deal with it, especially since I've worked so hard to adapt. My day gets shot, and I sit, wondering what the hell happened. I spilled to him what was bothering me, and it was a long list. I am having such a hard time adapting to the fact that I am no longer in school. It was quick - graduation, job, and the wedding. All of it happened so quickly, and I never got a chance to really sit down and realize that I was out of school...and now it's sinking in. Another issue is that Ive worked so hard to get here, and the economy is so bad, a college graduate can't get a decent job now. Everybody's getting retail jobs that have nothing to do with their major. It is the worst time to look for a job. If you have one already, you keep it - you don't let it go. But you also realize that you could have so many other different options, because of that diploma. Everybody tells you that an education is critical - of course it is...but not now. Any job is better than not having one now. Whatever you can get your hands on is good. I'm kind of in limbo about what I want. Don't get me wrong, I really do enjoy my new job. I'm helping people, and it's more on the side of the medical aspect of things, rather than just selling stuff. That makes me feel good, since it's something I've never done before. But when it comes to education and being in different environments, I can't help but wonder. I mean, we're living right down the street from the university. Chris has given me some ideas on what I could do if I went for my masters, and I have thought about what kind of jobs would be available. I just don't feel like I have a purpose. My life has been going so well. I have everything all set and I'm settled in my marital status...now I want to work on what I want to pursue in a career.
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